Jun 23, 2013

Courage: Bay getting personal.

Bay here.
Yesterday was my last day teaching at the Missionary Training Center. I have had the opportunity of teaching Sister Missionaries called to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ  at Visitors Center's around the world for the past 6 months. It has been nothing short of amazing.
I have realized a lot about who I am, and more especially who I want to be and become by learning from these wonderful missionaries and from sharing my understanding of Gospel truths with them.
This past week, with the first Rose Runners  race and the 7 month mark since the best and the worst day of my life, a lot of pondering and thinking occurred.
I thought about the accident.
I thought about Madie.
I thought about Taylor and how I thought I was going to lose him. I thought of his miraculous survival and his even more miraculous healing process and how he inspires others daily. 
I thought of who we have become as a result of this trial. We are better, stronger, closer to each other and to our Father in Heaven, and have a completely different outlook on life. 
So, back to the MTC. Yesterday, I had a couple of the sisters teach me as a "Visitor". These are always good experiences and so, of course, I was expecting nothing less than feeling inspired to change and to be better as a result of their teaching and our sharing. 
They shared this video with me. 

I remembered when I had to be courageous.
"You don't ever realize how strong you are until being strong is all you have left..."

Those words from that video rang so true to me as I remembered the crash... remember having no choice but to act and to act quickly. I knew Madie was gone, but Taylor... Taylor could live... I had to act.

I've never  thought of myself as a courageous person, but I don't think one thinks of themselves as courageous until, just like the above quote, you really have no other option but to have courage. In fact, I would say that a lot of my life has been spent thinking about things that I am NOT... I hate to even admit that here... but it is true. That thinking has changed. We are all children of God, and we are all a huge compilation of a lot of good things...
When Taylor refers to the accident, he always says "Bailee saved my life." Each time he says it, I get chills down my spine because it seems crazy to think that I, with the help of the spirit and some serious guidance, did know exactly what to do to help him breathe, to help him live. 
Was it courage?
Yes, I think it was.
I didn't freak out or give up or act weak. I was strong, capable, and I was not going to let him die. 
And he didn't. He lived to tell this story and inspire others. He lived to help Madie live on in our hearts, minds, and sore muscles (Rose Runners for life)
All the time people ask how I did that... how I handled that situation in the way that I did...
"You don't ever realize how strong you are until being strong is all you have left..."

That pretty much sums it up.

I have to say, feeling strong, capable, courageous... definitely not words I used to use to describe myself... But now, I recognize that it is OK to feel strong, capable, and courageous. 
I wish I could have saved Madie. I wish it so badly. Maybe Madie dying was an opportunity for a lot more people than just myself to show courage. She is giving us courage daily. 
What is the point of this!? We can ALL show courage in our daily tasks, trials, demons, joys, happiness', struggles... all it takes it just deciding to believe that we are courageous. 


We don't need to wait until we are faced with a scary thing to show courage, we can show courage in our daily decisions, actions, and how we choose to face the trials that inevitably come in our path. 

Doctrine & Covenants 122:7-8
 And if thou shouldst be cast into the apit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the bdeep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to chedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of dhell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee eexperience, and shall be for thy good.
 The aSon of Man hath bdescended below them all. Art thou greater than he?


Jun 21, 2013

Becoming a Rose Runner

A lot of you have hopefully been able to learn about RoseRunners from facebook, instagram, and by word of mouth. It is such an amazing thing that we are now a part of! We hope you all get involved. Click here to learn more.

 The first official RoseRunners race was this past weekend in American Fork. Madeline and Rachelle (Taylor's older sister) had set a goal to do a half marathon together a while back, and with the passing of Madie in our car accident, Rachelle (I will call her Ro) decided to take that goal and (quite literally) run with it. RoseRunners is going to be a source for hope for a lot of people who are struggling, like Taylor, to pay outrageously high medical bills or, like all of us, are grieving from a loss and have no where to turn.

 The first fundraising campaign for RoseRunners is for Ro's younger brother Taylor, who happens to be the love of my life.

 When Ro first introduced the idea, we decided we would run together in the American Fork Half Marathon June 15th. Ro and I ran practically the entire race side by side, holding hands cross the finish line.

 Let me tell you about my future sister in law, Ro Ro.

 She is amazing. She is the type of woman that would never allow the word "mediocrity" to be in her vocabulary unless she were referring to something she would never be.

 And she's not.

Here is Ro and I

 Ro is inspiring, driven, powerful, and an incredibly kind and compassionate woman. I am so lucky to be able to be her sister in less than 6 weeks! Running with Ro was nothing short of awesome. I wouldn't dream of stopping, because I know that Ro would not let me give up.

 That is why Ro was Madie's hero. She was everything Madie aspired to be and Ro helped her become everything she was and continues to be. Now, Rachelle is the leader and head of the non profit organization in honor of her beautiful sister Madie. And we need all of your help to get this going and to be the source of hope we all know it will become. 

 The race was a blast. Emotionally and physically draining, but we did it and we did it with our heads held high. (Ro's head a little higher than mine as I struggled to keep up with that powerhouse of a woman). My best friend and Roomate, Cici,and one of Madie's friends Shannon ran with us wearing a #tayandbay shirt and I can't tell you how much it meant to have them with us. We did it for Madie and we did it for Taylor. It's amazing how much easier running is when there is a purpose behind it.

 Why should we do this for Taylor? 

 Because he is the absolute most inspiring individual I have ever met. 

He lost a lot on November 20th. He lost his younger sister whom he loved dearly, he lost his ability to move easily, the opportunity to do what he loved in performing with the Young Ambassadors for a time, and became 300+ thousand dollars in debt... and yet, with everything he has lost and what he knew had now had to face, he has not failed to smile, give, serve, and love with all he has. He healed, and continues to heal, quickly because he decided to. He performed with the Young Ambassadors in China only 6 months after having a near death experience and suffering major injury. He is a person of valor, courage, faith, and christlike love. I can't believe I get to spend forever with him. RoseRunners is helping Taylor get back on his feet.

 Taylor and I are thrilled to be a part of RoseRunners and we will continue to be a part of it, giving back and helping others just like we have been helped. Taylor plans on walking the 5k on July 24th while Ro and I tie up our laces yet again for the Pioneer Day Half in Salt Lake City. Join us, support the cause

 and be inspired.